how much is too much?

Being an adult sucks. Five months after graduating from college, I'm still getting adjusted to everything. It's weird not being back at school. It's weird not seeing the familiar faces of my friends everyday. I definitely don't miss going to class and having a million and one things running through my mind all the time. I also don't miss demanding deadlines or professors getting on my ass to get shit done.

Now, I work just under part time at one of the coolest places to work at. I wake up at 8:30 and roll out of bed whenever I feel like it. I work almost everyday (including weekends). My days off are usually Wednesday and/or Thursday. I'm pretty sure a lot of my friends think I don't have a social life anymore - which is probably true. But I can say I'm happy - for the most part. I'm working on myself and my career. I constantly bust my ass to show my bosses and my peers that this is where I'm meant to be. I have so much passion for the radio industry and music. If I have to work anywhere else, then this push of doing what I love wouldn't matter. I wouldn't matter.

But lately, I find myself asking, "How much is too much?" What I mean, is that I constantly find myself missing a lot of moments with my friends, my family, etc etc. Much of my time is spent at work. And yeah, it's great that I have a working girl mindset. I go to work, do my job and get shit done. But at one point, am I sacrificing too much of my personal moments just to further propel my career? Like I said, "how much is too much?"

Ever since I started my job, this thought was always in the back of my mind. I didn't want to compromise the people closest to me because of my job. For the most part, everyone around me understands that I'm reaching for the stars. Most are supportive, others aren't too happy about the fact that I don't make as much time for them. And it makes me upset that they feel that way because I don't

want to be that person so set on their career that I start to neglect the people closest to me. And it all goes back to the question of the day, "How much is too much?"

I always joke around that my younger sister is going to get married before me. As I really start to think about it, it's probably going to come true. I was talking to my uncle about it a few months ago and he agreed and said something that left me in a freaked out state for the rest of the evening. Here's basically how the conversation went:

Me: Yeah, well Sab is probably going to get married before me!

Uncle: Honestly, you say that and I don't doubt it.

Me: LOL WHAT, I was kidding.

Uncle: No, I mean look at it this way. You're so focused on your career and that's great!

Me: Uh huh...

Uncle: And you said you're more than willing to travel for your job, so do that! But one of these days, you're gonna be thirty something, working on your career and going at life at the speed of lightning and you're gonna look at your life and think, well shit. I think it's time to settle down now.

Me: Yeah...

Uncle: And that's not a bad thing, you're just gonna be a little later than everyone else.

And then I basically had a conniption because I realized me being thirty is less than ten years away.

Moral of the story, I don't want to end up like those parents or that friend in movies who's too busy working all the time. Family always come first for me. Like my uncle said, I don't want to go through life and have moments just glide past me and I end up missing out on things. Having a super successful career is great, but like the great Barney Stinson once said, "Whatever you do in this life, it's not legendary unless your friends are there to see it."

At some point, I'll eventually find a balance between my career and my personal life.

For now, I'll leave you with my (current) life motto - courtesy of the Karl Strauss Brewing Company in DTLA.

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